I've been reading a site with others who suffer from fibro and other pain conditions. I agree with my husband that its important to communicate with others who know what I'm going through, but at the same time it can become overwhelming. All of the lists of fibro related ailments, new information being researched and posted to help answer questions for us. It can seem like an endless battle that will only become worse as time goes on. I don't have to just look forward to a life of chronic pain, but depression and anxiety, pain flares, fibro fog and memory loss (short term and long term), muscle spasms and twitching, continued insomnia, muscle weakness and inability to lift or use my limbs, eye sight issues, more migraines, the list just keeps going on and on. Is this really what I'm looking forward to as I get older? What am I going to do to my family? My husband and children will have to watch all of this up close and personal. How can I say that's ok? They deserve someone who's healthy and strong, and I'm just not that. I can't even come to terms with my situation and diagnosis, how on earth can I expect my loved ones to do it? I love them all so very much, but I don't want them to watch me deteriorate. I don't feel like any of this is making me stronger...how can I do that? How can I make this an experience for my family that won't leave them angry and frustrated at me?
Does anyone have any ideas???
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