Finding my voice

I’m trying to find my voice, why can’t I find it. Why is it so difficult to sound authentic? I don’t want to sound fake, or use clichés. I find it hard, however; to come up with the words I want to say. It’s as if something inside me is resisting allowing myself to put my words into writing. Is it my depression or fear of being told I can’t write? Probably. I've wanted to write for so many years, I was even told years before I really considered writing anything by a psychic that I would be a writer. I thought the psychic was very mistaken at the time, but she assured me this would be my future. Now I’m putting my time and efforts into writing. I suppose it takes time to write with your own voice and not mimic other writers. I've read that the best thing to do is write as if you’re speaking to someone. Use your own words; don’t try to come up with big words that you needed to look up in a dictionary. Just write, or record yourself speaking, than transcribe it. I’m working on it, and hopefully I’ll get there. I know my voice is waiting to be heard.